I've been getting these silly ideas lately.. like the curious, creative, etc. part of my mind is starting to become active again, mya. Which I like. It feels as though I am beginning to become me again, slowly. Am beginning to remember facets of my being, and break away from all the crud that's built up over the past some months. (Heck, it's been over a year now since I was diagnosed with Lyme. Things've been cruddy since before then.. it's been a downward spiral for most of that time, with occasional uplifting points in between).
There's a part of me recently that's been interesting in academic pursuits.. of a pretty strange kind. There's someone inside off me that really wants to dig deep into mythology and ancient texts to start figuring things out and piecing them together and create something cohesive and meaningful out of it. To really analyze and figure out what was going on in the minds of the people who wrote it. The biblical texts really are of a huge interest to me, maybe because I was raised around them, or because they're just kinda interesting to a lot of people, I don't know. But there's this part of me that wants to delve as deeply as I can into the original versions of the stories--or as close as I can get--and work on translating them to the best of my personal abilities, rather than relying on a lot of other peoples' interpretations of things.
Of course, this'd take a lot of years' work, and a whole lot of books and time and money. And I don't really know if I'm ready for that kind of commitment, but there is this looming part of me that's really curious to see what I could come up with. The stories just sort of fascinate me, and I can't help but wonder, what is there to be found in it all? How much of it is metaphor, and how much of it did people really believe in, and why? Where did these visions come from, and what did the mean? Can we actually create any relative sort of cohesive structure out of it, without the modern trappings of human thought, but figuring out as best as possible what was meant back in the times? What were the connotations of the words being used, not just the definitions?
Oh well.. am just babbling a lot. But I haven't done that in a long time, so mya. (^*^);