With that out of the way, I can focus on trying to get together with whomever I can, to say my good byes. It's been quite an interesting experience, these last few years.. living amongst friends. Seeking myself, and whatever else is out there. But now.. this, marks the start of a brand new adventure.
I decided to do a reading on the situation of bidding fair well to my ex.. after all, it's a delicate situation. We tend to end up at each other's throats after a couple of months, and we haven't spoken in as long. But I could not simply leave without saying goodbye. So I think what I'm going to do (with inspiration from the I Ching), is invite her to a dinner with some friends. I'll have to work out the arrangements, and of course make the call if that seems feasible. But I think it seems the best idea.. that way, there's no real pressure to see just me. And with other people around, there will be less focus on the two of us, and thus less opportunity for conflict. I hope that works out well. I do wish to see her again before I part, and I do not want our departure to be a sour one.
Dear gods, I'm starting to sound all weird again. Must learn to focus myself more.. stop drifting into that strange dreariness that hits me whenever I'm typing into my journal. Sheesh.