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It is very white outside

We have about eight inches of snow or so.. have not seen this much snow in what seems like an age.  (^*^)'

It'll be interesting to see how things play out.. thank goodness for having boots instead of sneakers. And it is good to have a big coat, even though it is not strictly a winter one.

Still have to call up the NJ Transit people, to check and make sure on my trip tomorrow. I'll have to catch a bus at 11:38, 12:08, or 12:38, am not sure which. I should maybe bring a book with me in case..

It is interesting how time sometimes plays out like a well-written story. Yesterday, I'd pestered my parents again about the need for a letter, and a utility bill in order to go to the clinic, and had suddenly gotten the impression I'd wake up and come downstairs to it today.

Time has been a thing on my mind for a while now.. not sure why. Last night I had a dream about time, and it started off with elements from both Star Trek (TNG) and Farscape. In the end, though, as my dreams sometimes do, it switched off to a different scene where I was being taught by some wiser man. He gave off the impression of being some sort of angelic, perhaps. That sort of "wisdom of age, but youth of eternity" thing. Could've been some sort of elfish, too.

Anyways, I'd received a letter from him asking me to come and meet him at a certain place and time. I met him there, and his purpose was to teach me about time. So while we were there together, he wrote me a letter, asking me to meet him there at the time I'd already arrived, and sent it off to me.

After this dream, I woke up, and understood what was happening. I wondered about my illness and my thoughts of time, and how they came about simultaneously. It was around when I'd first had the problem with my knee, back in April, that I thought up the idea for pShift (a world based on paradigm-shifts from alternate timelines collapsing in on each other). And I wonder if some day in the future, I'll have come to understand time more fully, and realize the importance of inflicting on my younger self this illness. And I think about how I'll probably be irrationally afraid of doing such a thing to me, even though I'd already know that it turns out alright.

And then I get out of bed, stop by the bathroom as always, and head downstairs. I walk into the living room, where my parents and older half-brother are lounging after breakfast, and there is my mother finishing the letter on one of her big, pink pads of paper. And I know it'll be alright.

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cheshy
Jan. 23rd, 2005 10:36 pm (UTC)
be well please
Take care, and keep in touch I missed you!
aekiy
Jan. 24th, 2005 04:02 am (UTC)
Re: be well please
:hug:
datacat
Jan. 24th, 2005 12:11 am (UTC)
Wanna trade your eight inches of snow for our twenty?
aekiy
Jan. 24th, 2005 12:50 am (UTC)
hmm.. the extra foot might be a little much to try an' wade in. (^*^);
helen99
Jan. 24th, 2005 01:18 am (UTC)
"Anyways, I'd received a letter from him asking me to come and meet him at a certain place and time. I met him there, and his purpose was to teach me about time. So while we were there together, he wrote me a letter, asking me to meet him there at the time I'd already arrived, and sent it off to me."

I wonder if he was you at a later time. The description sounds sort of like you.

"After this dream, I woke up, and understood what was happening. I wondered about my illness and my thoughts of time, and how they came about simultaneously. It was around when I'd first had the problem with my knee, back in April, that I thought up the idea for pShift (a world based on paradigm-shifts from alternate timelines collapsing in on each other). "

Since about 1999 or so I've had this weird feeling about that - that somehow I've fallen into the "wrong dimension"... but maybe a better way to put it would be that several timelines have collapsed together (maybe now that's happening more than before) and so everything seems a bit ... "odd".

"And I wonder if some day in the future, I'll have come to understand time more fully, and realize the importance of inflicting on my younger self this illness. And I think about how I'll probably be irrationally afraid of doing such a thing to me, even though I'd already know that it turns out alright."

Or maybe not inflicting it (but maybe so, I don't know) but maybe more like understanding it better and figuring out a solution to it?
aekiy
Jan. 24th, 2005 03:55 am (UTC)
I wonder if he was you at a later time. The description sounds sort of like you.


That's an interesting point.. hadn't thought of it. (^*^); Something for consideration..

Since about 1999 or so I've had this weird feeling about that - that somehow I've fallen into the "wrong dimension"... but maybe a better way to put it would be that several timelines have collapsed together (maybe now that's happening more than before) and so everything seems a bit ... "odd".


:noddly: It kind of falls into the category of the laws of conservation of energy applying to the multiple timeline construct (which is against the current intepretations). So the more timelines branch out, some of them have to eventually remerge with the whole in order to keep the universe from experiencing a premature heat-death or something..

It also falls together with my sombrero of time, which suggests that any event has a temporal horizon, beyond which nothing can said to have necessarily been effected by the event.

It's what would allow multiple timelines to remerge. :noddly: The more identical the timelines, the more likely they rejoin, so any changes would for the most part be invisible, or chocked up to 'bad memory', or just plain weird. In the pShift setting, the temporal paradigm shifts occur from multiple timelines crashing into each other at once, allowing some to actually perceive the changes.

(Wow.. was not expecting that level of clarity. ^*^);

Or maybe not inflicting it (but maybe so, I don't know) but maybe more like understanding it better and figuring out a solution to it?


Maybe.. the thought was that I actually inflicted myself with something which sparked my mind into a new path, of learning about time, which in turn gave me the ability to understand time well enough to be able to inflict the thing on me (whatever it was) in the first place.
helen99
Jan. 24th, 2005 04:51 am (UTC)
[[It's what would allow multiple timelines to remerge. :noddly: The more identical the timelines, the more likely they rejoin, so any changes would for the most part be invisible, or chocked up to 'bad memory', or just plain weird.]]

There have been occasions when I've thought to myself that something wasn't quite the way I remembered it where I was from. Can't think of an example offhand. It all started when my cat died of a strange ailment that nobody could identify. After that, realities seemed to bend. I know that there exists a timeline very close to this one where that cat, Rialian's brother, and Dave-O from canada are all still alive, and George Bush was never elected, and there never was a 9/11. Of course, when I think those things I immediately assume wishful thinking. But then I notice those ... differences (like spellings that seem to have changed, or certain things being said on the radio that are completely counter to anything rational and would have never been said "where I was from").

[[In the pShift setting, the temporal paradigm shifts occur from multiple timelines crashing into each other at once, allowing some to actually perceive the changes.]]

I wish more people could see the changes. The uncomfortable thing is that the majority of people seem not to see them at all. Maybe TV has brainwashed them or something or some chemical in the water destroyed their attention span, but everyone just seems to think everything is A-OK. Right, well... It could be either converging timelines or it could be clashing paradigms. Depending upon the adopted paradigm, one allows certain information to get in. Based on the information allowed in, one would see a certain reality set, so to speak. If you accept an opposing paradigm, then you'd see another reality set. Maybe that's how it works. The Information Brita - the antidote to perception management...
aekiy
Jan. 24th, 2005 05:01 am (UTC)
hee.. mya. So what you're saying here seems to suggest that with thought alone we may be able to shift ourselves through the nearest timelines, bit at a time, where the differences are minor. Perhaps with continued focus and thought one could eventually find a timeline closer to what one seeks. But it would require much clarity, and a sustained concentration on the movement..

Brings an interesting view to the sayings of Buddha. "With our thoughts, we make the world."
aekiy
Jan. 24th, 2005 05:02 am (UTC)
Addendum
Consider then what paranoia does..
helen99
Jan. 24th, 2005 07:42 am (UTC)
Re: Addendum
Yes... both sides of a double-edged...something. Depending on perspective it can be a wonderful or a horrible thing.

I just thought of an example of a "change" like I was thinking of... I'd made a post about it long time ago and you had answered it (it's been a while so I can't find the exact post right now). The post was about a comic I used to read as a child called "Oona Goosepimple". The weird change was, I thought this comic was a subplot in a main comic book called "Little Lulu", whereas it turned out to be a subplot in "Nancy". This wouldn't be very odd and would be easily attributable to bad memory, except that according to http://michelesworld.net/dmm2/lulu/question.htm#Oona
there were a substantial number of people who remember it the way I do. Oona was one of those "spacetime-bendy" nexus points, I think. Here's a sample of an Oona story:
http://michelesworld.net/dmm/lulu/Oona/oona.htm

Anyway, as timelines collape and get closer together, probably greater opportunities for wonder (and paranoia) arise...
aekiy
Jan. 24th, 2005 01:54 pm (UTC)
Re: Addendum
Perhaps so! (And I do remember the Lulu/Nancy conundrum). I think though that a construct like this would make paranoia a fault though.. if we continue to try and think our way into a better world, we may actually be able to effect reality, in such that those are the timelines which eventually overlap and collapse into our reality. The ones that we want to see, not the ones we're afraid of seeing.

Of course, this could just be the plot for cheesy movie staring Queen Latifah and Sharon Stone..
helen99
Jan. 24th, 2005 03:10 pm (UTC)
Re: Addendum
I'm not sure how this convex mirror of a world works, in that respect.
I've heard that inner hidden fears are heard as loud, if not louder than outer expressions of a desired outcome. I've heard that for every action is an equal but opposite reaction. I've heard that in some religions that's a 3x reaction (or whatever increment the religion in question picks). I've heard that the only way out of action/reaction is detachment, but that has never been an acceptable choice to me.

Those are just belief systems, though (and probably the plot of a cheesy movie, for which I'd prefer to see Trent Reznor and Tori Amos in the lead roles...)

Most beliefs are maps that someone made based on how it happened to someone, I guess. The land itself is probably a bit more complicated than that...
aekiy
Jan. 24th, 2005 03:20 pm (UTC)
Re: Addendum
:noddly nod:
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